ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!! SIQIN I HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR EXCUSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DON'T PUT THE BLAME ON OTHERS WHEN YOU ARE THE ONE AT FAULT!!!!!
IT'S YOUR PROBLEM!!!! NOT HIM, NOT HER, NOT THEM, BUT YOU!!!!!
It is so ez to just push the blame to others rather than putting them on myself.
EVADE RESPONSIBILITY. in addition to HARDSHIP.
I need to face the FACTS. Fact tt im not up to it. Im incompetent, i didnt check my work, i didnt use my brain and think. i didnt put my heart and soul into what i am doing, I hate it when i cant get things done properly, resulting in my frustrations and urgh to quit, to leave this place where I was made to feel stupid, dumb, retarded, burden, trouble, useless.
I really wanna escape.. I hate the voice within me tt says "You LOSE if you quit, u quit not because u dun like to be a secretary, not because u like hr work (u dun even know what they do), not because you are still young, and every other excuses you have come up with, it is because you are incompetent, u are not hardworking, you are not focused, you are not motivated, you CANT do things well, and YOU cant get things right and you dun have any brains to think." I will be defeated by myself.
DONT BLAME the environment, DONT BLAME my boss, DONT BLAME anyone.
ITS ME. I WAS THE SOURCE OF ALL MY PROBLEMS. EVERYTHING HAPPENED CUZ OF ME.
From now on, wadever problems will be my problems. i will be responsible for it. I must not COMPLAIN. I must not grumble. I must not throw rubbish at yw.
Learn to handle problems and shits the right way. whether i get to leave this place, fate will decide, on Friday.
I want to be proud of myself.
I want to be honest with myself.
I can lie to the whole world, but i cant lie to my heart.
I hope u will be truthful to your heart too, yw.
