THIS NEVER-ENDING TOPIC ABOUT *****
WHY IS IT THAT I CAN NEVER LEAVE THIS TOPIC ALONE AND MOVE ON?????
i think its becoz everything else is moving on forward except that.
its a constant thing STUCK in my head.
WHAT ABOUT IT???
am i being too obsessed about it????????
ok, i cant not live in denial, because if i dont, i will b mopping every single day of my life eversince the start of this school term, to be more precise(what i was taught in law - to be clear and concise), eversince i found out that TRUTH/RUMOUR/WHATEVER!!!!
BUT whatever it is, it is not a
fact, at least not yet (dear God, pls dun let it be a fact if u're advanced enough to receive prayers via internet, oh Lord Almighty, pls, PLS dont let it be a FACT).
urgh.
it wld be an awkward situation if I wasnt living in denial. i wld have to eat up ALL my ego before i can ever stop living in denial. i wld have to face him(coz im always ignoring him). he wld have to make a choice - bet that BOOBY MOTHER FXCKER BITCH and me.
+ if i stop living in denial, how should i respond to the hints that he was dropping - go ahead with a full confession about how we feel towards each other???? tag along in this game and start running along in the competition knowing full well that i wont outrun the other party coz of the DIFFERENCESSSS we share????????
DONT ALL OF U GET IT?????
it is a "MUST" that comes with a seal that I MUST LIVE IN DENIAL, or else, or else what???
i duno, bt im afraid to try. SO GUYS, STOP TELLIN ME TO STOP LYING TO MYSELF, BECAUSE I HAVE TO!!!!!
