secrets on feathered ink...Rainbow ♥

Thursday, 31 May 2007

so sorry abt today-was a bit off in the train(NOT DRUNK)

anyway.
i think i will never find the right one
since im always turning away.

you're right.
im carrying an armor-one thats so heavy, i cant seem to move on to anywhere in my life

i need protection
i feel that there's no one out there who watches over me
so i build a shield
so i wont get hurt
so im safe.

its not hard living in the world one creates to hide themselves.
its just hard that when you need a hand to guide you when you're lost in that world
and when you reaches out, no one's there to hold your hand
then your frail heart breaks
because then you will realise you are all alone in the world you hid yourself in.

im safe in my world but im not loved, because i choose not to reach out at all.

~me

03:23

Tuesday, 29 May 2007

whyy is everyone starting to sayy that we look alike?? even Ms Wendy Yu.

i cant find any part tts similar. is it something they can c tt i cant c???

or is it
juz because i was told tt i look like tweety bird and mouse.
&
U were told tt u look like mouse and tweety birdd.

lets just call us - TWEETY MOUSE.

we're so busy. not because we're busybody. but because we have so many identities.

YUEH WAN. SI QIN. BERNIE. EERT. TWEETY MOUSES. what else?

cant standd meet-less days. omg. what will happen duringg e holidaes?????

~you

21:33

lets talk
on our meet-less days...

~me

18:16

Monday, 28 May 2007

oh where, oh where
can my bernie be?
oh where, oh where can that girl be?

oh.
here she is
in my heart
plastered there with non-removable glue
for the rest of my life...

many words are left unspoken
~chl 8 show

many words are often left unspoken because many fear the consequences of the spokened words.
~yueh wan(me)

~me

22:28

Sunday, 27 May 2007

UGLY is the new beautiful
-channel 5-

SICK is the new slack
-yw-

HURT is the new love
-sq-

~you

22:19

Friday, 25 May 2007

firstly. i wan to talked about ytd.

WE ACTUALLY LOOK LIKE TERRORIST!!!!!! omg. tts sth new. other than ah lian, nerd and everything else tt i was told. i think tt security has hallucination. he might c us as 2 students wearing STOCKINGS over our heads.

and today.

we're not e only sua gus.!!!!!! =PpP still quite glad we witnessed tt. it came out on e news. at least =D

im so glad i spent my fri with u.

we'll be bernie and eert for e rest of my lifetime. and u are not gg to die when u are 30 or 40. i wont let u.

oUr stOry wiLL last. sistership.

i cant help it. i cant control my feelings. i cant stop thinking. i cant lie to myself. i cant pretend im leading my life as per normal. now tt nothing is bottled up, i can throw away my bottle. i juz threw it away(dun charge me for littering). andd i wont mention it agn. never.

movingg on!!!!!!! from here. with u.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
u always make me feel so touched.. to the extend tt my tears overflow.
nothing can expressed how i felt.

FROM TODAY onwards. i will cut off all communication lines.
i wont let u wait long.
i will be happy.
and i will try to stay happy.
today. 25 May.

~you

22:53

vulnerable girl.
gets hurt.
heals her wounds.
tries to resists.
falls into the many traps she went round about.
doesnt wish to be trapped-but nonetheless trapped.
in her own mind
she suffocates herself.
she holds her breath when something touches her weakest point-the core of her heart.
confused.
empty.
lost.
see
me
i
am
and
still
-here
always.

im not going to
slap you
scold you
shake you
ignore you

im just waiting,
hoping that you're happy.
and that you stay happy always.

~me

22:32

we are so NOT sua gus!!!!

~us

22:26

Thursday, 24 May 2007

"i'll rather have nothing than to have EVERYTHING BUT NOTHING!!!"
~said by the famous SIQIN-bernie

~me

21:49

Wednesday, 23 May 2007

Girls are like apples on trees.
The best one are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for the good ones,because they are afraid of falling,and getting hurt.
Instead they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good,but easy.
So the apples at the top thinks that something is wrong with them,but in realilty,they're amazing.
They just have to wait for the right boy to come along,the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.

so i guess that's why some are still waiting for the one...

BUT this is SO NOT TALKING ABOUT US.coz we are not plain apples, we are limited edition ones.

~me

17:42

Tuesday, 22 May 2007

the sound of the tissue being pulled out of the tissue box was way more dramatic than my solemn tears...

~me

20:58

Monday, 21 May 2007

okae. im super guilty alreadyy. only posted 1 entry so far. not tt i dun wan. juz tt my stupid hands closed e window aft spendin so long typing my own theory. hahas. i will retype them. soon.

guess what? i lost my tHumbdrive for e 2nd time. and its not even one month!!!! i lost my concealer.. adaptor spoil.. btw, i tHinK someone stole my tHumbdrive and concealer. cuz i rmb putting them IN my bagg. but its my fault, i always nv zip my bagg. v.sadd.

i dun wan to lose u

i am drifting away from my dream of getting rich. with all tHis happening to me.

~you

17:50

Sunday, 20 May 2007

You have my heart
And we'll never be worlds apart
Maybe in magazines But you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the dark
You can't see shiny cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because
When the sun shine We'll shine together
Told you i'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath I'm gonna stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more then ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella

~ copied from: rihanna- umberella

16:02

Friday, 18 May 2007

hopes tarnished.

how much i was hOping for ur love storyy to being. and it ended juz like tt.

its okae. the day will come. i believe so. am waiting for e dae to come. ur hapiness :D

i love purple hair. lOl. i oso wan!!!!

played pool till v.tired. -.-" kaTONGsiqin. LOL. im being no link for e 2nd time.

im having headache. so mUch tHings to do.

todae cant go hOme with u, sat, sun, mOn, tues. ARGHHHHHHHHH =/
miss u already.

thanks for beingg thru EVERYTHING with me. we are across e island, bUt my heart isnt. noe u cant take mushHy stuff so i better stOP startingg.

gonna readd ur book later. so i could laughh and return u e book on mon [=

love ur blog. and our blog. totally.

my first entry sounds retarded alreadyy. since when i dont sound like one? lOl.

~you

22:34

if i were you, i will make life difficult for him.
i will be mean and hurt him if he ever hurt me, even slightly.
i will ditch him if he tells me he forgot an important date, not to mention the first date.
if he brings me to somewhere he considers convenient only for himself,i will leave immediately.
in the first place, if i think or even detect that he is a loser in anyway, i will dump him, and hope that no unlucky girl will ever be his girl.

if you were me, you will be kind to the jerks that appeared in my life.
if you were me, you will be happy with what you have and not saying everything you have isnt enough, and be contented about the wretched life you lead
and if you were me,you will treasure the fate that comes your way, instead of avoiding them like they are contaminated.

but if you were me, you wouldnt have hurt the people i have hurt, coz u wouldnt have the heart to do so.

but if i were you, i wouldnt tell a girl like me that she deserves the best.

but we cant switch places in reality, so i will live my life like how i have lived, but i want to tell you this: you are the one who DESERVES ONLY THE BEST of everything, not me.

~me

22:23

things didnt work out the way we thought them to be today
1)your date with that crap amatuer
2)my "destinied" one

cant help but to sigh about them.
we're back to a square one

just cant be bothered with a lot of things now
i know you feel the same too.

whatever.

i really want to give a good lecture and a hard thrashing to that ****er!!!totally brainless la.

~me

21:42

Thursday, 17 May 2007

siqin...
no matter what i say or how i feel,
it's what you feel that MATTERS!!!

i know you're scared.
you fear and hesitate so much
but why are you hesitating?
what are you afraid of??

i know you have a fragile heart,
but what is the point if you dont live life and experience whatever you were met to experience
with that heart of yours??

but no matter how many times your heart will be broken,
you still know your heart exists and you can feel.
and even if the day comes when your heart is shattered into millions of pieces,
you know you still have me by your side to piece them back again..

dont lose faith.
im wrong
simple faith can actually bring you far,
further than your reasonable logics can bring you,
further than any heartaches you may foresee
its that uncertainty-the uncertainties in life that keeps us living, and brings us different hopes everyday...

im with you through this..love you always,sis.

~me

21:21

Wednesday, 16 May 2007

when we first met,
i looked at you,
i saw that innocent smile you gave me,
that smile which till this very day, i still cherish.

days went by,
we became friends.
but i never got the chance to reach into your inner world,
because then we had our own friends
and we had little time together,
at least not long enough to go further than a small chat.
but we kept our smiles,
exchanged with each chance we saw each other

but today,right now,
we are connected in so many ways.
sisters alike,
our friendship will last through many lifetimes.

i know you are worried, so am i.
we are both worried that we will drift apart
but even if that day comes,
you and i know
this will be our secret meeting place...

~me

20:43